CHANGE...CHANGE...CHANGE

CHANGE...

A word that has consumed my life for the last few weeks/months and there is more change coming.  I'm not sure where to even begin with all of it.  Change is inevitable...I know this.  Some change is bad, but some change is also good.  I knew there would be lots of change when I graduated school, but all the change has took me by surprise.  Some days I'm not sure if I am coming or going, some days I think my brain might explode, some days I think WOW when & where did all this change come from.  I am and have always been a firm believer in "Everything Happens for a Reason" and that is what continues to get me through each and every day.  So lets talk (or let me vent) about all the changes (and thoughts) running through my brain lately.

CHANGE...

Most of you that have followed my blog for a while know my world was flipped for a 360 when I was called and offered a job in BG with only a short time to get a lot of things done.  I took the job and busted my tail to make sure I was able to start with all my other nursing classmates.  We went through weeks of orientation, classes, and orientating to the floor.  At first I was really overwhelmed with all the "NEW" things I was having to learn...policies, procedures, equipment, paperwork...etc...and also trying to get my body & schedule adjusted to the long hours.  While training on the floor during on day shift I felt really overwhelmed because it was very busy & chaotic (there is a lot more people around during the day...bosses, doctors, social workers, etc.).  I was shuffled from person to person and everyone had their own way of doing things therefore I felt like I never learned anything.  After three weeks on day shift they switched me to nights.  It was a huge change for my body.  I wasn't sure about working all night and sleeping all day.  Luckily it would only be three days a week and I would have plenty of days off.  After only being on nights for five nights I feel like I have learned so much more then I did on days.  The night crew is very helpful and a really great group of girls to work with.  I am loving everything about nights, except the fact that my body hasn't completely adjusted.  The first three nights I survived on Red Bull, but when I got home I wasn't able to get any rest.  I went 72 hours and only slept 10 hours.  My body was exhausted.  The last two nights have been much better...no Red Bull's and I actually got some sleep.  So maybe there is hope that my body can and will adjust to this eventually.

CHANGE...

This weekend I was supposed to go to Indy for our annual "girl's" weekend trip to see Sugarland, but with everything that has happened in the last week I couldn't bring myself to go.  I was VERY sad yesterday when I GAVE my ticket away....yes I said GAVE :(  There were many reason's why I decided not to go.  I hope the girls have a great trip and I wish I was going with ya'll.

CHANGE....

I scheduled my NCLEX yesterday and really thought I might puke since the date has been set.  This is the test I have to pass to get my KY Nursing License.  I have only told a few people when I will be taking the exam...but I will tell you it is toward the end of the month...so start saying LOTS of prayers.  There is a lot riding on this test & I know I have an amazing support group so pray, pray, pray :)

CHANGE....

Normal...I remember blogging about "normal" right before graduation.  I can remember thinking "I would be glad when we had a normal life again".  Then I got to thinking normal....really what is normal anymore.  Well I still don't think I have figured that out.  I thought when school was out we would have more time and money to do more things, but with starting a new job it didn't  happen like I had first planned.  I am still looking for normal and maybe I will find it soon.

CHANGE....

I bought a vehicle a few weeks ago, because mine bit the dust.  It was a huge change for me.  I LOVE my vehicle, but I stressed out about the whole situation.  It was a huge step for me to take because this was my first major purchase I had made by myself since my divorce five years ago.  I didn't want to overload my finances and put myself in a bind.  I knew everything would work out the way it was supposed to and so far so good.  The kids & I are loving the mini van :)

CHANGE...

Facebook is now a thing of the PAST.  It was one of the BEST things I have ever done.  I had "tried" many time to delete my account...unsuccessfully until last month.  With working, the kids and life I just didn't have time.  At one time FB consumed a lot of my time...I had it on my phone, it was the first thing I had to look at when I turned my computer on...it just CONSUMED way to much of my time....and then throw in all the drama and it just got to much for me to handle.  At times I felt like I (and the rest of the world) was consumed by FB.  Since I deleting my account things are so much simpler and I like it.  I do miss my nursing friends, high school friends and out of town family, but I will find other ways to keep in touch (like blogging).  I have tried to do better with my blog...mostly for kids to look back at...and for me to be vent occasionally.

CHANGE...

Please continue to keep my mom in your prayers.  She is going through a difficult time right now.  We have all been through some twist and turns the last couple of weeks.  My mom has ALWAYS been there for me through the ups and downs....and I am returning the favor now.   

CHANGE...CHANGE...CHANGE...There is plenty more changes coming in the next few weeks/months so stay tune.