Trying to stay positive :)

Yesterday was a VERY hard day.  While studying for finals I felt like I was doomed.  I was hoping that once we started studying everything would start coming back to me & then I could just focus in on the things I struggled with the first time around...well needless to say this wasn't the way it worked.  After spending several intense hours study I just wanted to cry.  I got to thinking about the "big" picture too much & how everything I have put myself & my children through over the past 5 years depended on the outcome of two test on Monday.  I guess I was setting myself up to be anxious, nervous & stressed!  I know better then to look at the big picture....I do a lot better when I take one day at a time :)  Anyways, as usual, my support system kicked in HIGH gear & brought me back to reality.  I have worked my butt off for two long years & I must have done something right to get to this point.  Therefore I am going to "try" to remain positive & take this day by day with lots of prayers, LOTS of studying & lots of support from the "BEST" people in the world.  No need to fret....I HAVE GOT THIS!  I CAN, I AM & I WILL (this has been my saying through nursing school).  By NO means am I being arrogant or thinking I have this in the bag.  I know it is going to take A LOT of HARD work the next 2 days!  I am NOT giving up without a fight!!!!

Morgan's first night of dance recital was last night.  Of course I was an emotional basket case....like usual for me. ;)  As the finale there was a performance to "Time of my Life" 

I cried like a baby!!!!!!  Here are a few pictures from the night.

The stage :)

Morgan's Gymnastic Group--Pink Panther

Morgan tumbling

Morgan getting her "3 year award"

Morgan's Dance Group--Wild Wild West

Morgan's dance group--Firework

Everyone on stage for 1 last time :)

Hat's off to Jessica & all the staff!  She is a wonderful asset to our community and makes a difference in a lot of little girls lives!!!!

Today has been a BETTER day stress wise!  I have tried to have a positive attitude all day even though I haven't I didn't remember everything as we were studying.  I know my brain can only hold so much information & there is NO sense in getting all stressed out about it.  Whatever is meant to happen....will happen.  One of my facebook friend said it best yesterday.  "Prayers going up...blessing coming down"  Thanks Laura...I needed to hear that!  I am just overwhelmed with all the support I have had over the last couple of days.  I PROMISE I am not a complainer normally, but nursing school has a way of bringing out the worst in you.  All the stress, anxiety, nervousness & craziness will be OVER in 2 days....YES I JUST SAID 2 DAYS.  That means 2 more LONG, HARD days of studying.  After Monday there are still lots of things that need to be done, but the majority of the stress will be OVER!!!

Morgan has an encore performance tonight and Spencer has a ballgame...so I'm off to do my motherly duties.  Then the kids are heading to mom's for the rest of the weekend so I can STUDY!  I am sure there will be all nighters the next two night & lots of Red Bull, but WHATEVER it takes. 

I'm really sad that finals are the day after Mother's Day....therefore I will be spending Mother's day with my head in a nursing binder....but it will all be worth it in the end.  I will have ALL the time in the world with the kids in a few days.  Thanks mom for all your help...I COULDN'T do it without you!

Thanks to everyone who has listened to me grip, fuss & complain for the last week.  :)